Je suis Perdu / I'm Lost

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What to do now? because I can't get this popularity on the passion that I busted my ass so much to do during 8 or 9 years of drawing, and soon 4 years of sharing, little commentary & like doesn't satisfy my ego, so what to do, try to talk to people I don't know & make the fake-ass so that he likes my drawings or continue to publish without too much bothering me with my habit without seeing reality in front for too long now, because no matter how much I try to use my versatility by having all the styles that I personally like proposed, without getting too caught up on any one that I learn or tutorial on the internet, because every drawing I do & publish is already a lesson learned from my mistakes or good idea to do & to want to share, because I never really sketch properly speaking, even if the Stickman Bulk series, were to be a way of training me, but I feel more that it really upsets me, because basically, it's just for the pleasure of escaping into a world that I get tired of too quickly & sharing my knowledge or talking about something original that nobody cares, because they are still at their Thousand & a work already existing & reviewed again & again, and so, I'm Lost, because I see that for all these years, I just have some people who are interested in who is offered, but not the "General Public", not as many people who have come, maybe I aim too high & must satisfy me with my usual situation, because many are more in the shit than me & some would have liked to have my style & find that I draw rather well, or maybe that I take my head once again on my existence & that by dint of seeing drawings that are more beautiful than mine & that make more sight, more comment & all the accessories that goes with it, it almost becomes depressing, I have already talked about that I think in my drawing "You're a bunch of junkies !", but maybe I'm also developing a jealousy of his artists who were luckier than me, because at least he at least manages to express himself, to tour their "small business" and I think, knows how to better manage their schedule to practice drawing even more & their little job that brings them hard money between their food work & their real job that gives them a smile every day, while I, I still remain on the same position & do not arrive in advance, because due to my problems that handicap & lack of experience, while guys the same age as me (21 years) and even younger, manages better to get out of their situation, because they are either well surrounded or a crazy motivation that exceeds them much in the name of their passion, because many on internet can manage to do it & can believe it without problem, but well, when you have in the same situation as me, you have lost complement, you can see more between reality & possibility and especially, a fate of big illness not to stop complaining for a yes & for a no, while the solution is in front of you, but so blinded by you have problems & your shit character & also the fear of communicating with people, because for the remarks, the answers already heard a thousand times, The advice that make me look like I'm being belittled, when it's just to help me with my problems, because to give an example, it's like the same level to say you cook very well, when you yourself say "But that's shit, that's anything I've prepared!" It's like I whip myself like a fucking fanatic every time I get advice that's there to help me, and not to belittle me, but the problem is that I behave like shit & I feel more like I'm gradually becoming a marginal who wants to do everything alone, because the others are shit, and if I tell you this, it's because I'm not tired of being this kind of character, already that it's not easy to analyze myself, I had to complain like a big ass in front of a lot of people on the Internet, especially in Discord, to see the dark moron I become over the years, so, if you like, Help me, I don't know how? but try to see according to you who could help me improve my shitty behavior that I have too long in me, after I'm not you detailing everything my life & how I really am, but even get out a sentence any way, even if it might get me drunk, Do it! About this people, Have a good day or evening wherever you are, Darkin Kimiro was going AV59 & don't forget, Do your best & don't try to become like me !